Trapped inside my newly built cage

Im metaphorically in a cage now, staying most of the time in my room.. Guess what im doing~~.. it should be that surprising huh.. yeah, im studying!!!! studying for 2 papers.

The first one is Pathology, basically study of the disease. The underlying cause of it, what clinical signs or symptoms does it show, how can it progress, and how to treat it, basically all those stuff. Arghh, which i must say is not going so good atm. Im wondering why studying after I came to NZ has become so hard!!!!... now it just dawn on me that im taking all BIOLOGY subjects. Biology.. isnt really a VERY strong point for me. It is a strong point, but not as a strong point when i compare it with math. I love maths... just wondering why i dont take that in university, but anyway, im taking dent now.. so that should not be in question. Anyway, yes, im taking biology(-ical) subjects which requires a lot of memorising and not as much of understanding. Well need to understand the stuffs, but it requires so much of memorising, which is crrraaaazzzyyyy.. So much, how can i put all this into this not so big brain of mine.

And not only that... the need of knowing how to connect all the stuffs together. If there is mutation in this gene, what would it cause, what disease will it cause. There's too much, and in the end.. its confusing... especially for me.

Insya Allah, i hope that i will get through this, and so will the rest. Amin.

Enough of my rants

Salam :D