update

Wow.. blogger now has a new face! awesome! I'm awed by it, looks more user-friendly though.. hehehe

Anyway, I spent a month in Brunei for holidays. It was a quiet nice break, and I was able to have spent some time with my family. Thought it was going to be a boring holiday, turns out it was not. I was able to enjoy every second I was in Brunei, despite my siblings going to school, my eldest sister working in Seria, and Anis coming back during my last week in Brunei. All was well. Spent my birthday in Brunei too, but I hide my birthdate on facebook, see who manages to remember my birthday, and greeted me. Hahaha maybe my way of seeing who really care about me, call me childish but yeah, hahahaha, not so many greeted me, but I was happy, nonetheless! :))

So I am now back in NZ for my second semester. To be honest, I didnt want to come back. Hahaha been having too much fun in Brunei lah.

Turning 22 seems to add more responsibilities to my shoulders.

My dad has now begin to ask when am I going to get married. Lol, part of the reason is probably my eldest sister has a potential now, and I havent got anyone at the moment. The idea, however, seemed ludricrous to me. How am I going to get married if I dont have anyone special in my life. Hahaha oh yeah, I am 22, but love is a strange thing to me. I kept on saying this to my friends, but yeah, I dont know how it feels like. I had crushes before, but that does not mean that it's love. Now, currently, no crushes, no one I am having my aim at. Sometimes I feel like, if I continue on doing this, I would end up alone growing old. Something that I dont really want to happen to me. Lol, but finding someone that I would like to spend the rest of my life with, is just not easy. Not that im looking at looks, nor the luxury. Its just, finding someone who clicks with ME is not easy. I am not that easy going! People who're close to me should know that. Its like having this wall between me and the person who I just knew.

Anyway, Someone had volunteered to find me one, but if I dont have the commitment, how? Hahahaha, and me being fat is not helping either.  Maybe I can't focus on two things at once. Now I havent even finish my studies yet, how can I think about love? Sudah kan belajar ani pun tekapai2, kan becinta lagi.. aduiiiii.. susah!

Hmmm... maybe I should leave these thoughts till next time.