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Trapped inside my newly built cage

Im metaphorically in a cage now, staying most of the time in my room.. Guess what im doing~~.. it should be that surprising huh.. yeah, im studying!!!! studying for 2 papers.

The first one is Pathology, basically study of the disease. The underlying cause of it, what clinical signs or symptoms does it show, how can it progress, and how to treat it, basically all those stuff. Arghh, which i must say is not going so good atm. Im wondering why studying after I came to NZ has become so hard!!!!... now it just dawn on me that im taking all BIOLOGY subjects. Biology.. isnt really a VERY strong point for me. It is a strong point, but not as a strong point when i compare it with math. I love maths... just wondering why i dont take that in university, but anyway, im taking dent now.. so that should not be in question. Anyway, yes, im taking biology(-ical) subjects which requires a lot of memorising and not as much of understanding. Well need to understand the stuffs, but it requires so much of memorising, which is crrraaaazzzyyyy.. So much, how can i put all this into this not so big brain of mine.

And not only that... the need of knowing how to connect all the stuffs together. If there is mutation in this gene, what would it cause, what disease will it cause. There's too much, and in the end.. its confusing... especially for me.

Insya Allah, i hope that i will get through this, and so will the rest. Amin.

Enough of my rants

Salam :D

Line

Today had me wondering, how do you know when you're crossing the line? Sometimes I do wonder if I had crossed the line, but i just dont know. Did I? Hmmmm.... oh well..

Well.. dont mind me if I talk a lot about dentistry stuff. Since I am gonna be a dentist in the future, it's gonna be one of things that will play a major role in my life, as a career. Well in turn, you ( who dont take dentistry) might learn something from this blog. Well, its not that I want to make this blog 'educational', its just part of my life now. OK?

Anyway, this afternoon I've had patient's clinic. Hehehehe well... it went surprisingly well, despite being so nervous the night before, but it went well, which is good. Patient is happy, tutor is happy and I am happy too :). I did walking bleach or non-vital (hidup) bleaching, for tooth that got discoloured because they had root canal treatment. In malay, its called MEMUTIHKAN GIGI. Anyway, its quite a protocol (or something that we kind of have to do ) to call patient the night before they came to our clinic. Hahaha and calinya, ia ani main bebet sama wifenya, when the telephone was ringing, and ia bet 'oh this must be Amal calling.' hahahahaha patuttah ia ketawa when he was answering the phone. Hahahahaha atu cali..., which means its kind of predictable that i was going to call. Hahaha he was telling me in clinic, because me, as the bengang Amal, didnt quite get the joke when I called him up, but yeah.. hahaha atu baru ia cali...

Some of you might know that I didnt want to take dent initialy, i wanted to take med.. but now, I am happy with my choice. I dont regret it. Before i accepted this offer, I actually dont really know what to do, I opted for med because that was one of the top choice that my parents want me to do, so I was thinking of doing med, and plus I want to 'help' people in that way, and maybe Grey's Anatomy/ER influenced me to take med. But now, I dont regret my choice in taking dentistry. Its fun to learn. Yes, its probably ALL about teeth, but there's a lot more to it. Its not easy, i tell you. Med has its own difficulty, Dent also. Its not easy. The basis is the same, helping people 'surgically' and using medicine. But yeah... I used to look down on Dent. Thinking..'boring jua eh.. gigi saja kan diliat tiap hari.. BORING!~~~~" but now.. hahahaha there's a LOT to learn, which is kind of hard, but very exciting. Anyway... yada yadi yadu.. im gonna stop here and continue doing my work!! heheheh

Salam <3

Oh no~~

Instead of studying, I have been spending my time on watching tv. Well, not like most of the time, I did some studying, but its not as efficient as it should be. Well, the thing is, I have been renting the tv series 'Charmed', from season 5 to final season 8. Hah!!!!! Yes... well, if you know me a bit too well, you would know why I managed to finish all these seasons in a week time? Hahaha yeah, i didnt expect that to happen, oh well. I have to give myself reasons to finish it, because i dont like to stop halfway, being left wondering what's gonna happen next.

Well, I do feel guilty but I dont regret it :). Charmed is just awesome. I can't believe I stopped watching them. I can't remember why I stopped watching them in Brunei. Probably simply because... i can't remember the reason why. But anyway, its fun following all the episodes. I think i should watch from season 1 next time, till the end huh? My favourite characters... are obviously... little wyatt, because he's sooooooo cute... especially when he winked both of his eyes.. hahaha and Paige. She's just... hahaha pretty to look at. Guy characters? Well, if you look at personality and looks, i would choose Coop the cupid. Hahahaha he's just charming and sweet and romantic!!!! Hahahahaha maybe my kind of guy, but anyway......... yeah, i just really enjoy watching Charmed. Yeah, after the exam, and after the trip, ill definitely rent them all, and watch them.. hehehehe.. yeah..

Anyway, exam in about a week's time. I am not panicking, which I am quite worried about. Well, had the tests/exams last two weeks... so maybe it should be okay huh? But yeah, who knows.. we will see how it goes.

Salam :D

Relieving stress

I still feel very...... grumpy now, I was grumpier in the afternoon, but i feel a bit better now.. Talking to someone from back home proves to be relieving, especially if you stress out too much

I think it was because of my assignment marks. Hahaha you know what the lecturer wrote on it? 'Interesting but you lost marks due to your sloppy references'.. Damn!!! I suck at doing references. Well, its my fault because I did it the night before we were suppose to submit the assignment, and my fault too due to doing it last minute. I could have gotten higher marks if i did it right, but what can i do ???? its okay.. i should have been more careful

Anyway....

I dont know why most of my conversation with friends will end up with marriage. Are we at the age, when we start to talk about it? Scares me you know, because I still cannot find one for it. Let alone talking about marriage. Im coming 21 this month, and still cannot find the love of my life, or whatever you want to call it. Its understandable since im fat and a bit ... eccentric in a way if you guys get to know me, but yeah. Haiiihhhhh we'll see how it goes.. Someone here caught my eyes.. hahaha and he's not even bruneian.. tell you, but i think its more like a high school crush kind of feeling.

On the bright side, tommorow is gonna be hectic. Have lots of things to think about... and im stressed thinking about it and my upcoming exams also which i havent really studied for.

Okay.. gotta go people :PP

Salam

Buzz

This post is dedicated to Miss Bazilah Zahari. Congratulations Babe.. coz you just have turned 21.. 

Hahahaha... in 4 years time, it will be the prime time of your life ( you know what i mean - after all 25 is the marriageable age for women, well. at least women that I know).. hehehehehe apa lagi guys... grab her.. FAST!!! hehehe jan marah ya :PPPP

But anyway, I hoped you enjoy your day today. I would have called you up, but I dont have phone card with me at the mo, hence could not do it. 

Mudahan jua my 21 card for you has arrived, hopefully... if not, you can wait for it :D

<3 and miss you always.. Im a nappeun chinggu, i know that and im sorry for that. I hope i can find a way to make it up to you and the rest. 

Anyway, this is a note from me

I just have this knack of being sensitive to some things and also to my environment. Not the environment, environment, but more of social environment. I can sense if something is going on, but it can be right at times, it can be wrong too. I just dont know if this sensing thing is due to me being sensitive or its just right. It annoys me. I would just rather be oblivious to this sensing/being sensitive thing, because hell, its annoying. It just make my head go spinning and make all kinds of speculations, which I dont like.. AT ALL.   Oh well... its just life, isnt it ? Life cannot be perfect at all, well.. it can be almost perfect, but my life, isnt perfect.. at all. I have too much flaws that need to be addressed, but Im satisfied with myself, living myself as me. Im happy being me, and that's what all matters to me.

Anyway, as I said, i rather be oblivious to things. Being oblivious is sometimes stupid, i know, but if it can make you feel better, why not... if it protects you from being hurt, why not? Right...?? It seems like running away from addressing the problem, yeah... but for a while, being oblivious wont hurt. Well, that is just what I think.. 

Anyhoo.. Salam :D