smiling

Looking at others and looking at myself....

It seems that while smiling does come naturally to others, it doesnt come naturally to me, myself.... well, except to those someone who is well acquainted to me, someone who is really close to me, it is easy to give them a natural and happy smile.

For the past few days, honestly... I have seen past classmates... be it from primary school, or secondary school or even from form sixth school. Imagine how time can make me change, imagine how time can make two person, who were comfortable enough to speak with each other, not to speak or even acknowledge the other person after a period of time. Funny that this actually happens to me. Well, I dont want to speak of names, but to be honest, those people are in my friend's list on facebook. So now should I delete them? I was wondering, should I be the one who say Hi... or should I wait for the other person to say hi or hello to me?

I just truly find this funny.

Okay, looking at facebook for example.

You know how sometimes people travel to their friends' place, even after quite a while, they havent even meet each other and they were still able to converse comfortably. Well, i think they do keep in contact all this while, which in contrast, for example me... i dont really keep in contact. Maybe that's why the drift has kept on becoming bigger...  so fault is on me I guess..

Sometimes I do feel bad, you know.. for not being able to keep in contact, and also i do feel bad because some people wont just acknowledge me, but then to think about it. My life and their lives... we probably dont walk on the same path anymore. Though I truly happy for them being happy even without me in their lives...

Anyway, enough said.

The reason why I even wrote this blog is that I actually spent time with a few friends today, and same with yesterday and the day before, they never ceased in making me laugh heartily. I just feel happy whenever I spent time with them, to be able to speak of things in your life freely than usual, its fun. I am just grateful, while it seems that I was the one who left this circle group of friends of mine (because of a rift), this other circle group of friend were there for me to spend time with. Not that I am trying to replace this circle with that circle, i dont replace friends. Anyway, what I am trying to say is that I am just grateful that someone is there for me when I need them, when I need to talk to someone face to face. I am just grateful.

Anyway.. thats all

PS: Some people do know this, but if I dont mention anything to anyone, even if you ask me questions that I dont want to answer, dont expect that you could get me to say it.... hehehe